Mum At A&E

Mum has been having pain and these few days it got worse. She had been in great and didn't really eat. She couldn't eat breakfast today and we decided to come to the hospital. Last few days I started having thoughts of how life would be after she pass away. Before grandma pass away I also had that. I worried as sometimes my six sense did come through. Now we are at the hospital. The Dr said most probably no need to stay unless x-ray shows somerhing wrong with stomach if not they will just do pain relief. For stage 4 cancer patients what they can do is to provide pain relief to lessen the pain till they go. My heart dripped with tears when I hear that. I was hoping that chemotherapy will be able to cure her but seems like it is only to prolong her life like what a lot of people says. I wanted to cry but worried that she will be upset when she sees it. I need to be strong but its so hard. My brother says I should not cry and be strong but its not easy. If I don't cry and bottle it up I might have mental breakdown. Then how to take care of both parents. I still need to work hard to pay my study loan. Mum is my guarantor. I don't want the bank to go after because I can't pay.